How Grateful Am I?

That must be one hell of a question! Within our entire human civilization, we’ve always been judged by one thing, how grateful we’ve been in our lives! When you realize that you have more possessions than others around you, that should be consider you “grateful”. But then there’s the middle-of-the-road people who feel like they aren’t grateful enough! For instance, I work for Amazon, which is the biggest company in the world when it comes to the amount of merchandise that they deliver to consumers. As soon as I clock in, I walk to my assigned station, and I start preparing customers’ orders. When I clock out for the day, I say “whew, I made it” after scanning thousands of items! I work hard, but I am not yet grateful for the things I don’t have, such as a bigger house, a nice sports car, or more entertainment. I look forward to what’s coming in my future, but I haven’t fulfilled my true purpose of buying the things that I plan on having. That is the only reason why I am not grateful enough. However, I am grateful that I use YouTube because it does keeps me preoccupied whenever I am not working. I am known as JeremyThePlayer88, whom has over 12,000 subscribers dedicated to me! Every day, I search for hawk videos and I add them to playlists so that I can shoutout their YouTube channels. I had the chance of speaking over the phone to someone who feeds a wild Red Tailed Hawk right on her porch deck, but I blew my chance of ever being grateful enough of what she does. Its a long story! Its not worth getting into. I do plan on becoming a Falconer so that I can feed a wild Red Tailed Hawk for myself, but I need to forget about that and focus on the more important things. Falconry is a very time-consuming sport that someone who works at least 55 hours a week during the Winter months cannot possibly do. As long as I am making money though, I am grateful no matter what. Even the Coronavirus pandemic hasn’t stopped Amazon. They made efforts to provide thousands of essential household goods to millions of consumers in this desperate time of need.

If you ever want to work for Amazon, their job link is always open. You can find it at Once you start the application process, you can provide me, Jeremy Hirzel, as your referral candidate. The best part about working there is after a year of working at Amazon, you’ll be eligible for Career Choice, which pays up to 95% of your tuition to further your education within any field that you wish to pursue! And of course, you’ll gain warehouse experience to progress up the ladder to bigger and better positions. My manager has told me to own my success, and I hope the same can happen to you as well. Nothing is holding you back, so get going and remember that you have the power to realize your own expectations.

Updated Hawks Eating Bread Playlist

After 2 years, I have updated the “Hawks Eating Bread” playlist. So far, I haven’t been able to find any more videos on YouTube of hawks eating bread. However, I am still over-obsessed of this playlist, because I can finally say I can relate to these hawks, since I’ve obviously eaten bread. Live prey on the other hand is something I haven’t tried………….yet! Well, the reason why I have updated this playlist is because a user named @Acadian Birder has finally convinced me that no Accipiter has ever eating bread! The video that is titled “Cooper’s hawk eating bread in Hewitt, NJ” is incorrect. The hawk in that video, which belongs to @Michael Byro is actually a Red Shouldered Hawk. That means every video on that playlist except the one Red Tailed hawk video is a Red Shouldered Hawk. The truth is saddening, but that is okay because I realize that Cooper’s hawks breed more successfully than any other hawk because of their agile speed and small size. They are good at catching birds and won’t even bother stealing food from any birds. If the bird escapes without the food, it’ll simply come back to eat it once the Cooper’s hawk gives up chasing it. So in a way, the winner gets to eat no matter what! That makes me a little happier! Red Shouldered hawks on the other hand chase more than just birds, so that’s why they are more opportunistic. They will eat small mammals, lizards, and small insects as well. They aren’t quite as opportunistic as crows are but they will grab a piece of bread once in a blue moon. I moved the “Cooper’s hawk eating bread in Hewitt, NJ” video in the back of the queue until the title gets changed (if it gets changed that is). If you click on this playlist, you’ll be able to see the sidenote next to the video to clarify that title is incorrect.

Hiking Mercer Meadows Feb 7, 2018

I hit the jackpot on finding hawks today! I saw 4 different raptors, which were a Red Shouldered Hawk, a Red Tailed hawk, a Northern Harrier and a American Kestrel. I saw a Red Shouldered Hawk just a minute after I arrived at the park, which I originally thought was a Cooper’s Hawk. A 2nd Red Shouldered Hawk was actually brought to my attention by a passerby, who showed me a picture on her phone. I ended up stopping the video at that point because I didn’t feel like putting my camera directly in her face. I verified the picture, then I hit the record button once I saw this raptor. Once the passerby left, she walked right underneath the tree where the hawk was and it didn’t even fly away. It flew onto a post that was only 40 feet away from me! I was so surprised how close this raptor got to me! It is the closest any raptor has ever gotten to me to date! It was brilliant seeing it up close and the quality on my camera was superb! After I walked on the trail for 30 minutes, I saw a juvenile Red Tailed Hawk. It was most likely the same hawk I saw on the power pole a while back! I went ahead and took some pictures before I filmed it. Then, it flew over to a post, where I managed to get a closer view of it. It flew away as soon as I walked up the stairs of the observatory. I then saw 2 Northern Harriers flying in the marsh side-by side, so its obvious they were mates. I saw quite some acrobatic displays from them as well. After that, I turned my camera to the other side of the trail and I saw an American Kestrel! Oh my gosh, this day just gets better and better! I was right underneath the tree filming it too!

So far, this was the best hiking day ever! I’ve got over 30 minutes of unedited footage. I kept the camera running even while I was walking to get a better angle. Check it out!

Hiking Mercer Meadows Feb 6, 2019

Well, I almost filmed hawks today. It was overcast, so even if I did film any hawks, they would look shadowy. I went to the spot where I would normally eat lunch at, and I saw a Red Tailed hawk fly off from a tree. I didn’t even know it was there. I am not sure if this was the same juvenile Red Tailed hawk that I filmed on a power pole a couple weeks ago. I saw it on a power pole, and I cut through the forest to try to get a better view to film it. However, when I got halfway there, it flew off again. Before it flew off, I squeezed my Red Tailed hawk plush doll to make its Red Tailed hawk call. That may have scared it. I crossed the street, walked along the trail until I was closer but then it flew off a second time! I was persistent and I kept going. The hawk landed on another tree and even though it was 500 feet away I decided to get out my camera and film it. However, it flew off before I could even locate it with my camera! Once it flew off for the 4th time, it flew into the middle of the forest where it was no longer in my sight. I gave up and I continued on. Right at that moment I saw a Northern Harrier hunting in the marsh. I zoomed it in when it landed and ate something in the field. Some weeds were blocking the view so I chose not to record it. It just wasn’t a perfect enough view. I’m just very picky when it comes to filming, and as a result, I didn’t record anything. At least my failures today will make me a better photographer! There’s always next time!

Hiking Mercer Meadows Jan 28, 2019

Well, no hawks today, however, I did find 2 crows on a tree next to Rosedale Lake, which was right next to the playground. They were both preening each other. One of them flew to another tree, and its mate soon followed. It caught a worm on a branch, but it dropped it and didn’t bother to pick it back up. I’m sure it was too intimidated by my presence. That’s one reason why I didn’t want to get any closer to those crows.

I said in the video that the crow was feeding its mate, but that is incorrect, they were actually preening each other. One of them preened itself after preening its mate.

I do want to backtrack to a half-hour before I saw those 2 crows. I saw one crow fly over to a tree shortly before I walked past it and it was cawing at me. Unfortunately I didn’t think of recording that.


Hiking Mercer Meadows Jan 22, 2019

I recorded no hawks today unfortunately. About 15 minutes after I arrived at Mercer Meadows, I saw a Red Tailed hawk soaring overhead of the left-side trail near the Hunt House. I got out my camera, and my new monopod that I purchased and attached the camera onto it. I also made my Red Tailed hawk plush doll make its Red Tailed hawk call. Unfortunately, that may have scared the hawk. I lost sight of the hawk before I could even start recording. As far as I could see, there were no other hawks, and I tried looking far and wide, from Rosedale Lake to the soccer field near Reed Farm.

Well, I did try to record something today during my hike. I didn’t leave empty handed. I decided to record myself walking on the ice. I know it doesn’t seem interesting, but I tried to make it humorous in a way when I narrated the video. Check it out!

Hiking Mercer Meadows Jan 14, 2019

I decided to finally post of my hawk sightings on Jan 14th. I saw 2 hawks that day, a Northern Harrier, and 2 Red Tailed hawks. One of the 2 Red Tailed hawks was a juvenile. I’ll go ahead and share this video with you of my experiences. It is a long one, almost a half-hour long. I choose not to edit any footage, it is all shown from the moment I hit the record button to the moment I hit to stop button. The most interesting part I filmed was the Northern Harrier flying way above the marshes. The wind was much more mild than it was on Jan 10th and I kept the camera more steady than I did on that day. Once I lost sight of the harrier, I stopped the recording, then simply turned to the left and saw an adult Red Tailed hawk about a quarter-mile from that location. I started filming and zoomed in all the way to the 83x setting! The Red Tailed hawk stayed there for a few minutes before flying to a nearby tree. I stopped the recording to get closer to the tree. Once I started recording, I got a very nice close-up of the hawk. After the hawk relieved itself, it flew down on the ground. The way it swooped down made me believe that it was hunting for something. I then stopped the recording and proceeding toward the marsh. Little did I know is that there were many thorn bushes in the marsh. So, I gave up and continued walking on. About a half-hour later I saw a juvenile Red Tailed hawk on a power pole. I recorded myself walking towards the hawk and I got the most impressive close-up yet. Unfortunately, the hawk did not allow me to get any closer than 2 power poles away from it. I went ahead and tried to find this hawk again, but then it flew away again. This time, it may have swooped down on something because I wasn’t as close to this hawk as I was when it was on the power pole. I then ate my lunch at the location where the hawk was at and continued on. I then saw a Red Tailed hawk fly over the tops of the trees across the trail where Rosedale Lake is located. I’m not sure if this was the same juvenile Red Tailed hawk. This hawk flew over the trees a second time as well. To my surprise, I saw a squirrel standing right underneath the tree that the hawk was flying over. I started the recording and I said “And here is a squirrel”. I should have said “And here is the Red Tailed hawk’s lunch”! Well, there’s my hike. I went home feeling glad for getting as much footage as I did! Enjoy!

Hiking Mercer Meadows Jan 10, 2019

I’m posting this entry late because I didn’t think of mirroring my videos here on my website. I choose Mercer Meadows as my hiking spot because I whenever I visit, I’m seeing that location with the most amount of hawks! Today I saw a Northern Harrier flying above the marshes near Reed Farm. I believe I was located here: 40.318001, -74.752717. There are two observatories, and you can see the observatory in this video. I would have filmed the harrier longer, but I ran out of batteries in my Nikon Coolpix P900 camera. I started recording the video of the harrier at 3:41 pm, then I took pictures at 3:54 pm. Luckily I had enough power in my camera to do that.

If you wanted pictures, I got them right here, with the exception of the ones that were out of focus. If you want to see a full-screen view of these pictures, just right-click, then select “open image in new tab”. Its that easy! You can do that anytime while the slideshow is playing.

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The last picture is something I took pride of taking, this happened when the Northern Harrier took off from the ground.

Northern Harrier taking-off in flight

Hiking Mercer Meadows Jan 17, 2019

Well, today was a great day for hawk watching at Mercer Meadows! I saw 3 Northern Harriers and a juvenile Red-Tailed Hawk. I have a video of a Northern Harrier eating a vole as well as some hunting action. I filmed another Northern Harrier on a tree branch. I also filmed a cat a half-mile from that location. Then I saw a juvenile Red Tailed hawk before I ate my lunch in that exact spot. That hawk seemed to not appreciate my presence, and it flew away seconds after I stood there to film it. This was actually the same Red Tailed hawk that I saw the last time I went hiking as well. About an hour later, I saw a 3rd Northern Harrier on top of a tree in an open field at the north side of the park. I left the park about an hour after sunset, and a patrol officer reminded me that the park was closed. I would have left the park sooner if I wasn’t walking through the forest behind the trail at Rosedale Lake instead of walking on the trail! That figures!

My Rampage on 2 Users With NO audio in Videos

Okay, so there’s 2 YouTube users that I need to talk about. The first is Paul Broadbent. He had 1 subscriber entitled to his channel, and he is from the UK as far as I know, since he did mention that in one of his video descriptions. He had uploaded 3 videos 8 months prior to the day he uploaded at least 5 more videos with no audio in them. I gave him a piece of my mind by making a comment like this….”There’s no audio in here, so I disliked this video”. I actually ended up giving him more than just give 1 dislike…lets make that 30 dislikes. I simply logged into into many YouTube accounts and gave it a dislike. I then decided to do the same thing on all of his other videos. Once that was all set and done, he had at least 100 dislikes on all of his videos! That took at least an hour to do, just so that you know! I did notice a video entitled “Fox in an urban garden using infra red wildlife cameras”, which also had no audio. I have a feeling that camera doesn’t have a mic on it, and the other videos might be that way too.  I didn’t really have to go that far to give him 100 dislikes, seriously! He ended closing his account before I woke up the next day.

Simon Summers is the 2nd user I will talk about. He is also from the UK and he had at least 16 videos with no audio in them! Yep, almost every video he posted had no audio, with the exception of the first two videos. The first video with audio was making a crackling sound. I suppose that is the reason why he removed the audio. However, the 2nd video sounded perfect. I could hear bird chirping in it. I was so angry about that, I decided to log into multiple YouTube accounts and start posting dislikes on them. All these YouTube accounts had fake names so that Simon would think that lots of people were watching them. I started on a video called “sparrowhawk”. Then I proceeded through the rest of the videos. I didn’t post quite as many dislikes on each video compared to Paul’s videos. I disliked each video between 10 and 15 times. That took long enough for me to do. I used multiple computers with VPN’s. Yes, I actually purchased a software to hide my IP address so that YouTube wouldn’t see through my deviant ways. I even disliked the first two videos that did have audio in them. I just hated this guy THAT much! I went ahead and made a similar comment to what I said to Paul. However, he actually deleted my comment once he read it. So, minutes later after deleting that, I logged into an account the 2nd time and posted the same thing. Then I just SNAPPED! I then posted some comments so extreme that even YOU would close your YouTube account also if you read them. Well, one of them said this, “This video doesn’t belong on YouTube”. Then the very last comment I posted was “Close your YouTube account”. And guess what happened? He did! After being on YouTube for 5 years, it all comes to an end with that comment. This is what appeared when if you typed in the video URL,

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Not like it matters, because this guy had 0 subscribers anyways. However, I did go overboard on Simon. I could have just disliked the video one time and that would be the end of it, but NO! I had to keep going. The comment is what did it.

Unfortuntely, I could not download Simon’s video on time to share it on here. I was literally seconds away from downloading it and it right when Simon closed his account. I did manage to download Paul’s YouTube video of a Sparrowhawk feasting on a pigeon. I actually re-edited the video so that it has music in it, that way I don’t fucking LOSE MY INSANITY! So, here you go, I added a song into the video, called “Treat You Better” by Rufus Du Sol. This song was played on Spin Radio 1071 via their 99.9 HD2 signal with my Visteon HD radio. I really could have treated this guy better. I could have simply asked Paul why he removed the audio from his videos, then he would gladly tell me. If I had gotten a response, then I wouldn’t have gotten as upset as I did. I would simply reply to his comment saying “Thank you” and instead of giving the video dislikes or even 1 dislike, I would give it a “like” instead. Then I would go on my merry way. But I can’t change the past, so I have to live with my mistakes. So, here’s the video, I hope you enjoy it. In addition to adding the music, I also cut out the first and last 4 seconds of the video because there was just a blank screen. He edited this video quite professionally but it boggles my mind why Paul couldn’t just add music in the video. That is all he had to do. Then the video would be perfect! Let me also add that the video quality is one of the best I’ve ever seen! Holy crap the detail of that tasty pigeon the sparrowhawk is eating is so amazing! I could just eat it right now! Seriously! Yes I am that serious! I am going to consider reuploading this video on one of my many YouTube accounts.

Paul and Simon, I do want to say I am soooooo sorry for disliking your videos so many times, and I am ESPECIALLY sorry for the hateful comments that I posted. Please forgive me. I just totally lost my mind, which is typical because I do have autism. I will always remember this event forever and ever! It will continue to haunt me.